Yesterday morning Sean and I attended a military adoption fair. The many emotions that flooded across my heart….sorrow, encouragement, anxiety, overwhelmed, called. The sure, strong voice says I just want Theodore! There is no other child for me. But I grab Sean’s hand and remind the both of us that Theo needs siblings. Theo needs other little boys and girls to teach his story of infinite love to.
Of all the emotions I feel when thinking about adoption, the one that fills me with gratitude is called. Life before Theodore was not one of callings. It was one of wanderings and seeking. Suddenly my ears and heart are open to the 163 million orphans in the world. And this is just what God calls each of us to do.
“Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.” James 1:26-27
And now hope is creeping back into my blood. We are in talks with an agency we met at the adoption fair, and might start the home study soon. Someday Theodore, Sean and I can make that number 163 million minus one (or two or three or four)!